Well ok so maybe it is really not to wild, but hey when you have a boring life and you don't do anything you gotta make it wild right?? That is how you are suppose to get your friends to actually want to read your posts! Yet when they do read it and there is nothing exciting they say to themselves "wow ok that was lame." i know i am sorry!
Really the only thing i have done is just been hanging out with my best friend kersten! i love that woman. Monday we went down to gateway in Salt Lake and had a day of shopping and just so you know i seriously found the cutest pants ever! Of course i bought them! :) Don't you hate it when you go shopping and you just can't find anything you like? Or perhaps you do like it cause then you don't spend your money. I have the biggest problem trying to save my money. Ahhhh.
Tuesday and Wednesday i have just sat at home and chilled, but last night i did go get goodies and watched a movie "precious," i really recommend watching that show. If you do not like swearing then you probably wont like it. But you have to know that this show is about a girl who gets abused and raped and it shows her story! It is sooo sad, but like i said it drops the F bomb like A TON! no joke! I honestly think it is not necessary and that it would be so much better if that swearing was out of there, but the bases of the story is heart wrenching!!!
well today i had so many plans to look forward to and was so excited for today, till last night my boss text me and said that i may just have to work today! :( its so freaking hard to plan anything cause they randomly text me and call me all the time when i am suppose to have the day off and tell me i gotta go in! poop! I guess we shall see what happens though right? Plus i gotta think on the bright side, ITS MONEY!!! ha.
now k for saturday everyone is going to be jealous! I am going down to Mt. Green to hangout with an old friend that i grew up with and we are going to build forts out of furniture and blankets and then we are going to have SPITBALL WARS!!! yeah sounds gross but for some reason to me it sounds so FUN!!! and i am totally excited for this to go down! then we are going to bake a cake yay! :)
saturday and sunday: well i work saturday so i won't be doing anything but that and then sunday i get to go to two homecomings oh yay!!!! :) with two girls i absolutely love! what are there names your wondering? well they are kersten randle and shantel stoddard! they are wonderful girls that i just simply love! well now that you know my week i bet you guys can all guess what day i am most excited for! hahaha. <3
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
worst news of my life. :(
well lets just start it off with i have had a bad hip that has been killing me oh so bad lately, well my father thought i was just being a baby and thought i was just making it all up so i dealt with it for 6 months and then i just got to the point where it was unbearable and i just could not stop crying because of how bad it was killing me. well i went to the doctor and got some x rays of my hip and what not and get the results and the doctor says they are not so great so he calls my dad and gave him the news, that is then when my father finally decided to believe me.
i later went and saw a hip specialist and his name was jason blackham and he was up at mckay dee hospital. he tells me that they have never done a hip replacement or anything dealing with the hip on a young 19 year old girl and that there were very high chances of having problems or anything like that because this surgery is so serious! so i am freaking out and not wanting this. Doctor Blackham says here is what we are going to do, we are going to try anything possible to try and help it before getting this surgery. I started going to physical therapy and had to go for 6 weeks, that did no justice. Wednesday march 3rd, i had gone in for an injection and an mri to see if that would work and that was my second attempt to try and fix this hip of mine!
lets just say i don't have much luck! i went back today for the results of my mri and injection and nothing happened! i am gonna probably be getting surgery. But not only is this going to be a high risk surgery, it is expensive, and it will take a year to recover from this surgery to get back on my feet and get back to normal! i am really scared for this whole situation because i am so young and i have so much i need to do and i just need to go on with my life!!! :(
people help me with the faith and prayers to get this hip better and out of this shape it is in and to hope that i can just be a normal teenage girl who can go out and have a fun life while i am young and to see the bright side of life because right now i am not seeing anything bright in my life and i have been really down lately, i know i got my mother up in heaven telling me, shantel you are on this earth for a reason and you are the shining star in my eyes and i am here for you and i know she is pushing me to be happy and she is there for me. i am just really struggling with all this that is going on! i really could use my mother in my life right now to help push me! but if she could deal with her cancer with such a positive attitude and knowing she was gonna die and to be happy and ok about that because it is gods work and what he had planned then i can know that whatever happens it is gods plan! my mother is so my hero for all she ever did!!! im praying like crazy for the best!
i later went and saw a hip specialist and his name was jason blackham and he was up at mckay dee hospital. he tells me that they have never done a hip replacement or anything dealing with the hip on a young 19 year old girl and that there were very high chances of having problems or anything like that because this surgery is so serious! so i am freaking out and not wanting this. Doctor Blackham says here is what we are going to do, we are going to try anything possible to try and help it before getting this surgery. I started going to physical therapy and had to go for 6 weeks, that did no justice. Wednesday march 3rd, i had gone in for an injection and an mri to see if that would work and that was my second attempt to try and fix this hip of mine!
lets just say i don't have much luck! i went back today for the results of my mri and injection and nothing happened! i am gonna probably be getting surgery. But not only is this going to be a high risk surgery, it is expensive, and it will take a year to recover from this surgery to get back on my feet and get back to normal! i am really scared for this whole situation because i am so young and i have so much i need to do and i just need to go on with my life!!! :(
people help me with the faith and prayers to get this hip better and out of this shape it is in and to hope that i can just be a normal teenage girl who can go out and have a fun life while i am young and to see the bright side of life because right now i am not seeing anything bright in my life and i have been really down lately, i know i got my mother up in heaven telling me, shantel you are on this earth for a reason and you are the shining star in my eyes and i am here for you and i know she is pushing me to be happy and she is there for me. i am just really struggling with all this that is going on! i really could use my mother in my life right now to help push me! but if she could deal with her cancer with such a positive attitude and knowing she was gonna die and to be happy and ok about that because it is gods work and what he had planned then i can know that whatever happens it is gods plan! my mother is so my hero for all she ever did!!! im praying like crazy for the best!
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